this post feels so fated. today's my twentieth birthday & these past few weeks i've felt crushed by all these different versions of myself, lived and expected. this made me feel a wee bit more relieved & understood. thank you as always for your beautiful & timely words
Yet another gem - putting the abstract, indescribable feelings into poetically-poured, concrete words seems to be your specialty.
I think about the 'being different ages whilst being my current age' paradox a lot (though I didn't realise it till right this moment). especially since entering into adulthood a few years ago. The juxtaposition between the expectation of having to fulfill 'adult responsibilities', all the while wanting to curl up and ignore everything. I'd rather throw myself into a digital bliss of endless, 15-year-old-me, tumblr scrolling, or 19-year-old-me kdrama binging. That's what I think when I'm confronted head on, like a bull in a ring, with life as an adult.
Yes, this is a great topic. Thanks for unearthing it from the depths of my unconscious into the forefront of my mind.
this post feels so fated. today's my twentieth birthday & these past few weeks i've felt crushed by all these different versions of myself, lived and expected. this made me feel a wee bit more relieved & understood. thank you as always for your beautiful & timely words
Schuyler,
Yet another gem - putting the abstract, indescribable feelings into poetically-poured, concrete words seems to be your specialty.
I think about the 'being different ages whilst being my current age' paradox a lot (though I didn't realise it till right this moment). especially since entering into adulthood a few years ago. The juxtaposition between the expectation of having to fulfill 'adult responsibilities', all the while wanting to curl up and ignore everything. I'd rather throw myself into a digital bliss of endless, 15-year-old-me, tumblr scrolling, or 19-year-old-me kdrama binging. That's what I think when I'm confronted head on, like a bull in a ring, with life as an adult.
Yes, this is a great topic. Thanks for unearthing it from the depths of my unconscious into the forefront of my mind.